I Just Wanted to Let You Know

Leila Mekhdiyeva, thoughts

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When I just moved to Prague and had to taste all pros and cons of living abroad alone, dealing with adults’ lives’ difficulties, my Dad told me once the phrase that I keep reminding myself whenever I feel like giving up. “Life will always be difficult. It is just the way things are. What you can do is accept it and keep going, because it will never get easier. You will always have to face difficulties and to deal with changes. So all you have to do is keep going no matter what, just so you’ll keep up with your life. But if you wanna go further, you have to go faster, as fast as you can.”

I look back at past two and a half years of my life and I keep asking myself if I’m on the right way, if what I am doing is what I was meant to do, if who I am becoming is who I was meant to be. And I still have no idea. I always imagined that when I will grow up (and as I’m 22 now I guess I already did grow up), I will have my life figured out, I will have something to be proud of, I will achieve my childhood dreams, etc. Right now, as hard as it is for me to claim this, I am nowhere near. I am a mess, but at least I have enough guts to admit that; I am confused and I still have no clue what is my purpose on Earth.

And that is why I write. I write all of these words right here, right now, just because that’s what I know how to do, and that’s what I have been doing, frankly, ever since I learned how to write, but more professionally for the last three years of my life. I look back at the time I have spent at uni getting my bachelor’s degree in journalism and communications, and all I can remember are my sleepless nights with coffee and my laptop, writing all of those essays, papers and short stories that I had to write for all of my classes. I still have one semester left, which by the way starts this Thursday, and after that I will only have my thesis in spring. And I have no idea what I am going to do after that, but I feel that I need to be more active here and to use my platform to use my voice.

They say there are no shortcuts to success, and now more than ever I get it. There is so much left unsaid, unheard, unseen from what people get to see when it comes to successful stories and people. There are so many sleepless nights, amounts of coffee, stress, pain and loneliness that no one gets to acknowledge, but that is what is making your success so bittersweet and great.

As I already mentioned, I am writing because that’s all I know how to do. Don’t know whether it is a talent, or just the skill that you learn, but when I am writing it does not feel like I am writing, it feels natural and calming. What I am now trying to learn is how to do it more publicly. I guess, it makes sense since it is my job (duh). That is the reason why I decided to change this website’s concept – from personal style blog, that I started when I was 16, into a website where I will publish my articles, short stories, thoughts, anything that involves an act of writing itself.

I don’t want to pretend someone I no longer am, and that is why I decided to grow. To admit that that I am not who I was anymore (even if sometimes I wish I was the same, because all these changes feel weird right now), and to move on.

I just decided to finally go faster in order to go further.

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Ready for Summer

Czech Republic, daily outfit, Europe, fashion, Leila Mekhdiyeva, look of the day, Prague, shopping, spring, summer

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(SheIn playsuit, Michael Kors watch)

Few days ago I received an amazing parcel from SheIn.com . “And what was inside that parcel?” one might ask. Well, it was this floral summer playsuit that makes me want summer even more now. I can already see myself out and about in Prague (or whatever else I might go this summer), styling this playsuit with some accessories – a purse, sandals, sunglasses and maybe a hat? Anyways, I couldn’t wait anymore and wanted to show you this new feminine thing in my closet as soon as I possibly could. So here it is.

If you feel the summer vibes already and want to buy this same playsuit for yourself, just click here.

Let your May days be awesome!

Love, Leila.

LM Book Club #2

books, France, Leila Mekhdiyeva, Paris

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“Hello. It’s Me”.

I think, this is how I should probably start this post as it’s been a while since the last time that I updated my blog. Nevertheless, I’m back with the 2nd part of LM Book Club.

This time I have a special fashion book to write about. It’s “How To Be Parisian Wherever You Are”. Some of you either have already read it or have definitely heard of it before. But as I promised myself to share books worth reading here, on my blog, I couldn’t help but write about this book as well.

When I say that this book is such a great source of inspiration, trust me, I really mean it. If you have always admired the style of Parisian ladies or just Paris in general (just like me), then this book will 100 % become one of your favorite ones. Of course, you shouldn’t expect anything more than self-irony from cool-ass stylish French women, but they are so good with explaining all the details of French style, and lifestyle in general, through this ironic way of writing, that you will have the time of your life while reading it. Not to mention the visual part of the book – all the pictures there are just MAGNIFIQUE .

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Hope that now you will finally decide to grab your copy of “How To Be Parisian Wherever You Are”. Because after doing so, you’ll get that sense of French style, that will guide you in this crazy world of fast-changing fashion trends.

Love, Leila.