It Took a Long Time to Find My Voice

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(H&M coat, H&M scarf, ZARA over the knee boots, Stradivarius bag, Stradivarius sweater)

I’ve noticed that I don’t feel myself miserable anymore, as I did for quite a while, ever since I graduated high school. I think, for so long I was trying to understand myself, to find a way, to make my life more interesting and then at one point I stopped. I stopped because I knew who I was. I was on my way, walking towards my goals and gracefully achieving them. I was living an interesting life, not because of something or for someone, but simply because I enjoyed every single second of it. Understanding that this is the moment that will never happen again and that was the beauty of it. I didn’t even notice all of these changes before I finally felt that I am a different person now. I can even tell that when I started changing and becoming a new person that I am today, I was scared. I was scared of the power and strength I felt inside. I was scared of the potential I have and the mindset that is free and limitless in understanding the meaning of life and in shaping my own beliefs.

There are still some questions in my head waiting to be answered, but after all those years when I felt lost and misguided, I can honestly say, I don’t feel that emptiness inside anymore. And if you’ve ever been there, if you have ever felt that way, then you know how hella good it feels to finally leave your misery behind.

But if you don’t know this feeling of relief yet, if you still have to find out who You Are, there’s only one thing I may say: don’t stop, my love. It’s totally worth it.

Never Stop Creating New SH*T

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(Pull & Bear bomber jacket, Zara crop top, Pull & Bear high waisted jeans, H&M boots, Forever 21 bag, Michael Kors watch)

Take a deep breath and create.

I finally feel how inspiration and creativity are running through my veins, expressing themselves in every single thing I do.

I’ve lost myself and I’ve created a new one, ‘cuz being the same person your entire life is extremely boring. So now I try to listen to Her, this new person I’m becoming, and to let go of all the things that I was doing for the last few years that didn’t truly belong to me and will never be part of Her.

You can never find yourself, you can only create. The same way you create your art in life. And as I’ve already met Her, I need to organize my life for you to meet Her as well. But I promise, you’ll love Her, as I already do. Because, she’s the one who lets me be free, crazy, wild and real.

As a new chapter of my life is about to be opened, My-new-Self is about to emerge.

Love, Leila.

What You Imagine, You Create

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(Zara top, Stradivarius ripped jeans, Accessorize bag, Zara heels, Michael Kors watch)

Once in a while, you may feel upset or lost, but guess what? That is fine. I could even tell you that it is somehow healthy for your soul to feel the things, whether they make you extremely sad or astonishingly happy. Let all those feelings in and don’t try to run from them or from your thoughts. Let your soul become what it was meant to be, even if you are scared to death, still don’t be afraid to bloom.

Be courageous enough to try new things, to let your old habits go, to look for the things that make you feel alive and make your life worth living. Promise me to let all your fears go and to follow your heart, to do all that it takes to get where you see yourself and where you know you truly belong. Make art and be creative, because this is the only way your mind, soul and body will be in piece.

We Are All Mad Here

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(H&M jumpsuit, Michael Kors watch, Primark bag, Aldo sandals)

Can you believe that summer is almost over? Obviously, it is the beginning of fall according to the calendar, but we still can enjoy the summer weather and dress weather appropriately. So thinking that pretty soon I’ll need to stop wearing dresses and jumpsuits and by that open The Sweater Weather Season is kinda sad for me. But then again, aren’t sweaters the reason to love fall and winter?

My advice for you, my reader, enjoy the hot and sunny weather while you still can, unless you live in the place where there is ALWAYS a Summertime (which I’m pretty jealous about, jk), then you’re lucky enough not to think about sweaters and the end of the most magical season. :)

Love, Leila.