It Took a Long Time to Find My Voice

Czech Republic, daily outfit, Europe, fashion, Leila Mekhdiyeva, look of the day, Prague, video, winter

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(H&M coat, H&M scarf, ZARA over the knee boots, Stradivarius bag, Stradivarius sweater)

I’ve noticed that I don’t feel myself miserable anymore, as I did for quite a while, ever since I graduated high school. I think, for so long I was trying to understand myself, to find a way, to make my life more interesting and then at one point I stopped. I stopped because I knew who I was. I was on my way, walking towards my goals and gracefully achieving them. I was living an interesting life, not because of something or for someone, but simply because I enjoyed every single second of it. Understanding that this is the moment that will never happen again and that was the beauty of it. I didn’t even notice all of these changes before I finally felt that I am a different person now. I can even tell that when I started changing and becoming a new person that I am today, I was scared. I was scared of the power and strength I felt inside. I was scared of the potential I have and the mindset that is free and limitless in understanding the meaning of life and in shaping my own beliefs.

There are still some questions in my head waiting to be answered, but after all those years when I felt lost and misguided, I can honestly say, I don’t feel that emptiness inside anymore. And if you’ve ever been there, if you have ever felt that way, then you know how hella good it feels to finally leave your misery behind.

But if you don’t know this feeling of relief yet, if you still have to find out who You Are, there’s only one thing I may say: don’t stop, my love. It’s totally worth it.

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